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[08 Sep 2006|10:11am]
i'm almost finished with this school and i TRUELY have never been so excited about ANYTHING in my entire life. which is sad.

instead of using this license and actually working somewhere as an esthetician, i am really considering applying at an airline instead. i mean, i've always wanted to be a flight attendant. who knows...i'm a big baby.

good talk.
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[21 Jun 2006|11:17pm]
hey. remember when life was good.
well, now everything sucks.
it's ok because it will stop sucking and start being amazing by september, but its sooooo far away.
take me to an island pleaseee
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[04 May 2006|12:41am]
whoa. i think i'm boy crazy.
remember what it's like to appreciate someone and lust after someone different.
i love moo moo. and my sister too. she needs to move back down to my area.
and i need a vacation again. please.
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[17 Mar 2006|12:30am]
um. i'm actually a little sad.
and a lot retarded.
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[14 Mar 2006|01:48pm]
it's hard to believe that you don't really understand things until they actually happen to you but it's quiiiiite accurate.
so, you are critical of the qualities you see in other people that you possess, and subconsciously loathe in yourself?
yes, yes a lot.
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[18 Feb 2006|11:34pm]
today was the happiest day i've had in a really really really super long timebecuase it was 83 degrees out and D and me went to the beach and there were bazillions of people there and we listened to kanye like we did in the day and we ate taco bell and were in tarpon springs.
tomorrow we're goign to clearwater beach and that also is a good thang.
i got my tongue pierced today too.
it hurts pretty bad. i'm a piece of trash these days...
ahhhh but nothing even matters beucase i'm able to go to the beach now and it's all i've needed to do for months. and now i can. i miss tom.
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[31 Jan 2006|11:02am]
my sister just called me and said her hours at the hospital are moving around and theyre shitty -- weekend nights...oh oh, but she'll be making $80,000 a year starting in the middle of february. and she has completely off mon-thurs. so for only working three nights out fo the week syhe makes that much money. which is kind of a good chunk of change for one single person like herself.
so thats my new plan: to be a nurse.

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[24 Jan 2006|10:31pm]
i just realized it's been WEEKS since i've eaten ice cream.
and i'm not really considered a Nisly anymore because of this
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[23 Jan 2006|01:07am]
it seems like it's still the end of december.
i used to hardly ever work now i am constantly at chilis, or at school and i'm beginning to hate my life. and that is a bad road to follow.
and had i realized how horrible my class/school schedule would have turned out to be prior to chosing classes [and with there beign limited options], i would have taken the semester off to do more important things. laceinne and me are champion runners and we tear it up like one wouldn't even belive.
i work too much.
some people at my work smoke pot after they get off in the parking lot.
everyone at my work is perverted. and there are no longer homosexuals.
but we have some "swingers." although, my brother says if you're bisexual, you're a homosexual -- there is no in between.
who cares. i'm so tired and still have not done any math homeowrk i'm going to fail. i might as well have taken the semester off cause i would be in good shape and happy all the time.
i'm goign to bed.
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[12 Jan 2006|12:28am]
those people -- the people who, when you first meet them immediately begin talking about their problems and how they aren't in relationships beucase they always screw them up and they can't figure out what is keeping them from having a half-decent life -- aren't those the people you try to stay away from?
we probably should. then again...i might just be one of them. who knows, who knows.
more importantly, today i ate a cinnamon crunch bagel, toasted, with hazelnut cream cheese at panera, and i almost had a heartattack because i simply could not believe how delightful it tasted in my mouth.
schools back. it's ok. i dont' care enough to write about it.
and i'm actually starting to belive the things he tells me. and i remember the last time i liked someone this much. it was nice. and it's nice now, too. but nicer.
i can't wait for spring break to come to me.
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[26 Dec 2005|02:19am]
i guess christmas is over now?
i barely knew when it was here.
thank god, this is finished, and all i have to look forward to is the evening before 2006. becuase it should be totally radical.
all i got for christmas is excercise junk, and i htink my parents are trying to tel me i'm fat. ahahahhhh. it made me laugh a lot. but its good beucase its all things i wanted. for hte most part.
i really don't appreciate how much my chest has been hurting lately and it makes me very much upset.
i got a gift card to victoriassecret and now i finally get to have a fancy bra, ecuase i never belived in spending money on thme. from that store, i bought lotion, spray and underwaer on sale, and now life ought to be pretty sweet.
and i think i am having big problems called, we both really like each other. that is, if he's not lying about having only the lines in his boat...and none others. silly captain.
whatever, merry fucking christmas.
aahahahahh! yess! bikeride with joseph this week.
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[17 Dec 2005|12:43am]
shoot soon as i get some money, im gettin me some fake boobs
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[08 Dec 2005|02:29am]
i thought i was done being an idiot. but i'm not i'm really seriously an idiot.
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[27 Nov 2005|09:59am]
yesterday i made the most delicious quesadillas of all time.
whoever marries me is going to be a very very lucky man.
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it's for the birds, gurl [22 Nov 2005|11:32pm]
what a waste.
i'm tired of complaining all the time and even more tired of hearing everyone else complain becuase that's all i and every single person i know does and it's just reeeeeeediciluousl. my fingers hurt like like the old lady on happy gilmore and no one reads this anymore anyway and it's ok because it never was cool.
i have massive deeply-rooted strange seemingly un-fixable problems with being annoyed with almost everyone i come in contact with. i wish it wasn't so easy for me to hate everyone, and [i hope] that it is just an age thing and that i'll sooooon grow out of it.
my mom wants to send me away like jess went and i told her that i'll only leave if i can go to fiji, mexico, hawaii, or costa rica, and she looked on teh computer adn said i cna go to fiji. and she wasn't kidding, but i am scared to go aroudn the world by myself. i dont know why i ever thought i could be a flight attendent -- or maybe that's why i say i can't do it now, becuase it all comes with age. but if everythign comes with age, then shoot, ima be waiting a long time to attain anything i really need to be able to stand things and handle things.
maybe i should go far away, because nothing here would change. by the time i get back, it will still be the same new port richey, except a few people will have gotten married, or had babies during that time becuase that's all people do here. but mostly get married and have babies. or just have babies. becuase i guess it's cool to not care about yoruself or what you do, and then to not think its right to give it up or get rid of it and think that at 17, you are perfectly capable of raising a little baby all on your own. the two don't go together. "taking responsibility" doesn't necessarily mean you're being responsible. i'm gonna get beat up. [not all situations are hte same, yes i know]
hahaha. i think i'm retarded, also. along with everythign else. man.
i have a really big problem with returning phone calls too. or calling them in the first place beucase its a weird reason i just don't know and i think it's just that i hate hte phone really a lot, apparently. i think i get it from my crazy brother. i need to get rid of that cellular device and that problem could be taken care of. ugh.
i'd do almost anything at this point to drop all my classes i signed up for in the spring and blow this joint. but another problem thats kinda cool is that i dont't hink i hate my job anymore, becuase i've been enjoying the poeple i work with, some of the customers, and looking forward to going back. which is strange. but i really shouldn't talk about it, becuase once you talk about thigns, they go bad.
my body won't stop being sick and tricking me all over the place.
i went to the doctor again today and she did anoooother throat culture. but no, i don't have strepthorat. and i was the very first one at that joint today, adn two ladies walked in after me, and while we ewere all sitting [not so patiently] waiting to be called in, the stupid lady on the phone whose job it is to get our charts out, is yelling at her kid on the phone. so the other stupid ladies who call us back get our charts since lady number one is retarded, and then the second [two] ladies are even worse and stand there with our charts blabbing about nothing at all with the windows open. which was the most ridiciulous thing i've ever seen. meanwhile, my throat hurts so badly i can't even swallow or talk, and am mouthing everythign i say to my momma. it was painful. they really need to keep that window shut if they're going to so-secretly torture us. what a bunch of goofballs.
and finally, the longer time goes on since the final episode, the more and more depressed i get that they took 90210 off the air. i was the most faithful fan, and trying to make up their lives in my head now, doesn't do justice to what arron spelling would have actually created. what a bummer.
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[15 Nov 2005|09:28pm]
i was thinkin bout a little white tank top sittin right therrre in the middle by meeeee.

and i'm addicted to oreo pie. because i'm awesome at making it.
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[14 Nov 2005|12:47am]
all i know is i suuuuure do know how to pick em, shooot.

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[03 Nov 2005|12:02am]
As long as you can Say you've hit rock bottom, you haven't.

[apparently, 'issues' in life are hardly ever as bad as they seem.]
it really can't be so terrible.
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[19 Oct 2005|01:36am]
I think i have sleeping problems.
its not that i can't, its just that i don't?
and i don't even have an idea of what to do for my project.
school totally is lame.
and i don't i think know anyone in the world who doesn't do this myspace business.
and i'm really really tired, and i found the JOHNNY AND ROOFIE TAPE!!!
and it's hiiilarious.
i'm going ot try to sleep for real this time.
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haha. i bought a paul mitchell. haha. [17 Oct 2005|11:09pm]
today i heard a statistic that bummed me out:

the older you get - the more likely your babies are to be girls. most teenage girls have boys.
so i guess i should start having babies now or soemthing, because i better not have any girls at all becuase i just don't like them.
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